Hi! How’s it going? I’ve been thinking about you nonstop since you left, so I hope it’s okay that I’m sending you a letter already, even though it hasn’t even been two weeks since you left. (...From my perspective, at least. I have no clue how time is moving over there!)
Are you guys okay? Are you getting settled alright? Are things still dark and scary in Eos? I hope you’re staying warm and getting enough to eat... I wish I could send you care packages, or tell you the names of people who would give you shelter, or do literally anything that could actually help you. But at very least I can write to you and let you know how hard I’m rooting for you both. I know if anybody can make an impact in the world, it’s you two.
Lately I’ve been having my lunches in the Tenebrae room, looking out over the scenery. It’s so peaceful. I hope Eos can look that beautiful again someday.
Nothing terribly monumental has happened since you left, it’s just the normal chaos as usual. We still haven’t gotten any newbies, which I’m grateful for. Even though the dorm feels strangely quiet these days, I haven’t been much in the mood for introducing new folks to this place for some reason.
The string of graduations continues, and it looks like the next one to go is me. I’ve been having a surprisingly difficult time coming to terms with the thought of leaving. I’m sure I probably don’t need to tell you what it’s like. [Firefly] is coming with me, and that really helps, otherwise I’d probably be a complete shambles instead of just a hot mess. Senpai is coming with us, too, to my great surprise. We’ve made the decision not to come home, and not to go to anyone else’s home, either. We’re going to make our own home somewhere new.
I know it’s not a decision everyone agrees with, and I hope nobody is too angry or disappointed in me. I want to see what good I can do on the other side. I want to make this place better. I want to lessen people’s suffering if I can, even if it’s just a little, even if I have to make some sacrifices for it. I hope that my wish will help give you some refuge on your journey; I hope I will be able to help you with more than just a letter. I hope so. I admit I’m pretty scared. But I’m going to do my best and try to make myself a better life where [Firefly] and I can be happy.
Once we leave, pep!pep!’s going to be down to just four members. A surprising number of units are dwindling down to nearly half the sizes as they once were... I’ve never seen anything like this before. I wonder if the program is shutting down, or getting ready for a new season? It’s a little disconcerting, to be honest -- although truthfully, probably the fewer who are here, the better.
I’m worried about those I’m leaving behind, though. If you have the time (and ability) to write, I’m sure the others would be relieved to hear from you and know you’re okay.
Anyway. I wanted to give this to you at your graduation, but I wasn’t able to get it off in time. I hope it’s okay to send it to you belatedly in the mail. I hope you know how much of an impact you’ve made on me over the months we’ve known each other. You’re a truly incredible person, and I don’t think I’ve ever been so impressed or so inspired. No matter how much time passes, I will always carry a part of you with me in my heart. So I wanted to send you this, so a part of me will always be with you too.
All my warmest wishes,
Cobalt
[Included in the letter is a cut-off point of an antler, crudely fashioned into some kind of charm. The workmanship is pretty rough; he’s never been good at this kind of thing. But it’s easy to tell there’s a lot of effort put into it, and it’s made with a lot of love.]
[The handwriting is shaky, and there are a few dots that indicate pausing too long, but it's all legible as if it has been well practiced and prepared.]
[Cobalt],
I have been well, do not worry for me. I am still sorry to have left you all, but I am also grateful for the time we had. Eos was so dear in my heart, I could not have stayed away a moment more. I had hope and cause, and that was reason enough, but . . .
I cannot agree. I love you so very much and I can understand the great temptation, but I cannot be content in your choice. I can understand why you would not wish for Eos, but go elsewhere. Go anywhere. Remaining is poor comfort, whatever you may think you can endure for the sake of others. Please, think of yourself.
[The writing changes. It's definitely shakier and scrawled out.]
You are beloved. You have my aid whenever you may need it. Do not hesitate to call upon us.
Thank you for your letter. Unfortunately, since those still inside the production only get mail on fanmail days, I didn’t receive it until it was forwarded to me a few days after my graduation. I appreciated it all the same, though.
In your letter, you asked me to consider myself. Thank you for worrying about me, but thinking of myself is exactly why I chose the way I did. I want a life where I can be happy, and to me, that means a life surrounded by those I love. By choosing the other route, I’d be able to spend the rest of my life with one person, yes, but I’d forsake my connections with all the others. And that thought alone brought me enough heartache that I didn’t think I could be truly happy. When I consider my choices, my heart feels more at peace this way. Perhaps it will be a different story in a few hundred years, but only time will tell.
I’m very sorry if you are disappointed in me. However, for the first time in a long time, I feel excited about my future.
Senpai, [Firefly] and I are doing well so far. We’re staying with some friends who graduated a long time ago, and I missed them all like crazy. It’s been wonderful catching up and hearing about their lives and what they’ve been up to. It’s been very healing!
We’ve been given a stipend from the production, and that’s been really helping us get our feet under us. During the day, the three of us have been out hunting for a more permanent place to stay. We’ve found some apartments that look promising, so now it’s just a matter of waiting for the paperwork to go through. Once that’s settled, the next task will be finding a job. It’s surprising how similar this is to just any regular city... people go to work, pay bills, do the grocery shopping... I guess if you had asked me when I was young how I pictured the afterlife, I can’t say I ever would have expected it to be like this.
One downside is that it’s way too dark here, even during the day. It reminds me of home a little too much. At some point in the future, I want to go traveling and see what other worlds are like. Maybe we’ll be able to find somewhere that’s warm and bright and peaceful where we can spend our days. I’m looking forward to it!
Speaking of traveling to other worlds, my wish went through. From now on, you’ll be able to travel to other worlds, too. When someone takes Heaven’s offer, their original world becomes the domain of Heaven. My understanding is that you and [Jack of All Stats] will be able to physically visit any other Heaven-aligned worlds. So if your journey ever becomes too perilous, if you ever need somewhere safe to rest, or need food to eat, please know that there are places you can take refuge where not even the Astrals themselves can follow you. I hope with all my heart that this can be of use to you and ease some of your burdens.
I fought hard for it, but unfortunately it turns out it is completely impossible for people like me to visit places within Heaven’s domain, which now includes Eos. So as much as it pains me, I won’t be able to visit you in person with a big care package like I’d hoped. But at the very least we can still see each other if we go to the Tokyo-F visitor’s center at the same time. And thanks to the wish, we can now text, call, facetime, and email each other for communication in real time. So that’s cool. It’s not exactly the same, but it’s better than nothing!
Please be safe out there. Please know that I am thinking of you constantly. If there’s anything I can do to aid you, please don’t hesitate to call on me. I’m wishing you the very best.
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Day 398
Hi! How’s it going? I’ve been thinking about you nonstop since you left, so I hope it’s okay that I’m sending you a letter already, even though it hasn’t even been two weeks since you left. (...From my perspective, at least. I have no clue how time is moving over there!)
Are you guys okay? Are you getting settled alright? Are things still dark and scary in Eos? I hope you’re staying warm and getting enough to eat... I wish I could send you care packages, or tell you the names of people who would give you shelter, or do literally anything that could actually help you. But at very least I can write to you and let you know how hard I’m rooting for you both. I know if anybody can make an impact in the world, it’s you two.
Lately I’ve been having my lunches in the Tenebrae room, looking out over the scenery. It’s so peaceful. I hope Eos can look that beautiful again someday.
Nothing terribly monumental has happened since you left, it’s just the normal chaos as usual. We still haven’t gotten any newbies, which I’m grateful for. Even though the dorm feels strangely quiet these days, I haven’t been much in the mood for introducing new folks to this place for some reason.
The string of graduations continues, and it looks like the next one to go is me. I’ve been having a surprisingly difficult time coming to terms with the thought of leaving. I’m sure I probably don’t need to tell you what it’s like. [Firefly] is coming with me, and that really helps, otherwise I’d probably be a complete shambles instead of just a hot mess. Senpai is coming with us, too, to my great surprise. We’ve made the decision not to come home, and not to go to anyone else’s home, either. We’re going to make our own home somewhere new.
I know it’s not a decision everyone agrees with, and I hope nobody is too angry or disappointed in me. I want to see what good I can do on the other side. I want to make this place better. I want to lessen people’s suffering if I can, even if it’s just a little, even if I have to make some sacrifices for it. I hope that my wish will help give you some refuge on your journey; I hope I will be able to help you with more than just a letter. I hope so. I admit I’m pretty scared. But I’m going to do my best and try to make myself a better life where [Firefly] and I can be happy.
Once we leave, pep!pep!’s going to be down to just four members. A surprising number of units are dwindling down to nearly half the sizes as they once were... I’ve never seen anything like this before. I wonder if the program is shutting down, or getting ready for a new season? It’s a little disconcerting, to be honest -- although truthfully, probably the fewer who are here, the better.
I’m worried about those I’m leaving behind, though. If you have the time (and ability) to write, I’m sure the others would be relieved to hear from you and know you’re okay.
Anyway. I wanted to give this to you at your graduation, but I wasn’t able to get it off in time. I hope it’s okay to send it to you belatedly in the mail. I hope you know how much of an impact you’ve made on me over the months we’ve known each other. You’re a truly incredible person, and I don’t think I’ve ever been so impressed or so inspired. No matter how much time passes, I will always carry a part of you with me in my heart. So I wanted to send you this, so a part of me will always be with you too.
All my warmest wishes,
Cobalt
[Included in the letter is a cut-off point of an antler, crudely fashioned into some kind of charm. The workmanship is pretty rough; he’s never been good at this kind of thing. But it’s easy to tell there’s a lot of effort put into it, and it’s made with a lot of love.]
Re: Day 398
[Cobalt],
I have been well, do not worry for me. I am still sorry to have left you all, but I am also grateful for the time we had. Eos was so dear in my heart, I could not have stayed away a moment more. I had hope and cause, and that was reason enough, but . . .
I cannot agree. I love you so very much and I can understand the great temptation, but I cannot be content in your choice. I can understand why you would not wish for Eos, but go elsewhere. Go anywhere. Remaining is poor comfort, whatever you may think you can endure for the sake of others. Please, think of yourself.
[The writing changes. It's definitely shakier and scrawled out.]
You are beloved. You have my aid whenever you may need it. Do not hesitate to call upon us.
- [Refrigerator]
Day 404
Thank you for your letter. Unfortunately, since those still inside the production only get mail on fanmail days, I didn’t receive it until it was forwarded to me a few days after my graduation. I appreciated it all the same, though.
In your letter, you asked me to consider myself. Thank you for worrying about me, but thinking of myself is exactly why I chose the way I did. I want a life where I can be happy, and to me, that means a life surrounded by those I love. By choosing the other route, I’d be able to spend the rest of my life with one person, yes, but I’d forsake my connections with all the others. And that thought alone brought me enough heartache that I didn’t think I could be truly happy. When I consider my choices, my heart feels more at peace this way. Perhaps it will be a different story in a few hundred years, but only time will tell.
I’m very sorry if you are disappointed in me. However, for the first time in a long time, I feel excited about my future.
Senpai, [Firefly] and I are doing well so far. We’re staying with some friends who graduated a long time ago, and I missed them all like crazy. It’s been wonderful catching up and hearing about their lives and what they’ve been up to. It’s been very healing!
We’ve been given a stipend from the production, and that’s been really helping us get our feet under us. During the day, the three of us have been out hunting for a more permanent place to stay. We’ve found some apartments that look promising, so now it’s just a matter of waiting for the paperwork to go through. Once that’s settled, the next task will be finding a job. It’s surprising how similar this is to just any regular city... people go to work, pay bills, do the grocery shopping... I guess if you had asked me when I was young how I pictured the afterlife, I can’t say I ever would have expected it to be like this.
One downside is that it’s way too dark here, even during the day. It reminds me of home a little too much. At some point in the future, I want to go traveling and see what other worlds are like. Maybe we’ll be able to find somewhere that’s warm and bright and peaceful where we can spend our days. I’m looking forward to it!
Speaking of traveling to other worlds, my wish went through. From now on, you’ll be able to travel to other worlds, too. When someone takes Heaven’s offer, their original world becomes the domain of Heaven. My understanding is that you and [Jack of All Stats] will be able to physically visit any other Heaven-aligned worlds. So if your journey ever becomes too perilous, if you ever need somewhere safe to rest, or need food to eat, please know that there are places you can take refuge where not even the Astrals themselves can follow you. I hope with all my heart that this can be of use to you and ease some of your burdens.
I fought hard for it, but unfortunately it turns out it is completely impossible for people like me to visit places within Heaven’s domain, which now includes Eos. So as much as it pains me, I won’t be able to visit you in person with a big care package like I’d hoped. But at the very least we can still see each other if we go to the Tokyo-F visitor’s center at the same time. And thanks to the wish, we can now text, call, facetime, and email each other for communication in real time. So that’s cool. It’s not exactly the same, but it’s better than nothing!
Please be safe out there. Please know that I am thinking of you constantly. If there’s anything I can do to aid you, please don’t hesitate to call on me. I’m wishing you the very best.
Yours always,
Cobalt