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[honestly, he'll take at least one of the biscuits, before leaning against the wall.
in the light, it's easier to see that he's very pale, and has new scars along his arms]
Thanks.
in the light, it's easier to see that he's very pale, and has new scars along his arms]
Thanks.
You are welcome.
[considering that then setting a cup of tea down in his direction, hands around her own cup]
You said you were bad at explaining. Would questions help? Or would you rather take some time to put everything in order?
[considering that then setting a cup of tea down in his direction, hands around her own cup]
You said you were bad at explaining. Would questions help? Or would you rather take some time to put everything in order?
... It's not that I'm bad at explaining.
[he pauses, furrowing his brow....]
... Let's try questions. Maybe that'll work.
[he pauses, furrowing his brow....]
... Let's try questions. Maybe that'll work.
[absolutely keeping eyes on him, trained to do so]
You were hurt. How?
You were hurt. How?
I got into a fight.
And I didn't care about how hurt I got, so... it just made it worse.
And I didn't care about how hurt I got, so... it just made it worse.
You worried someone. How did that make it worse?
Because... I backed Griffin into a corner. I was trying to kill him.
It is still difficult that you tried?
[she's guessing, it shows]
[she's guessing, it shows]
... A little.
That idiot's mad that he didn't beat me, and I'm mad that I almost killed someone I liked for no damn reason.
That idiot's mad that he didn't beat me, and I'm mad that I almost killed someone I liked for no damn reason.
Griffin has different priorities. You cannot hold them against him if you do feel something towards him . . .
... Then let say it this way: I'm mad at myself.
[and dropping her gaze]
I know. That you thought and moved to that without hesitation has troubled you for some time now, hasn't it?
[letting go of her cup of tea, going to delicately find a spot near him, leaning against him with a sigh]
You put great effort in holding yourself back. If only, that much effort could go into easily following your ideals. That is asking a great deal, I know, but I know you are capable. Under your own power and means, you can.
I know. That you thought and moved to that without hesitation has troubled you for some time now, hasn't it?
[letting go of her cup of tea, going to delicately find a spot near him, leaning against him with a sigh]
You put great effort in holding yourself back. If only, that much effort could go into easily following your ideals. That is asking a great deal, I know, but I know you are capable. Under your own power and means, you can.
Yeah. When my head's not being messed with? I can hold myself back
[he pauses, glancing over at her, and then slightly counter-leaning, and then he moves his hand over hers.]
Guess... I don't know.
[he pauses, glancing over at her, and then slightly counter-leaning, and then he moves his hand over hers.]
Guess... I don't know.
You are not wrong to wish to fight and hurt to protect those you love, Jay. Many are protected by the sacrifices of those willing to endure that labor.
[lacing her fingers with his]
[lacing her fingers with his]
[it's weird that he appreciates the contact so, when he doesn't necessarily seek it out either.]
What if it was pointless. Another case of getting your intentions and decision making hijacked?
What if it was pointless. Another case of getting your intentions and decision making hijacked?
It is not pointless. Your intentions and decision are you. If you wish to cast blame on all for what they are made to do, then you will end up alone.
... I guess.
[he's quiet, mulling that one over. it feels a little incongruous to him, and how he thinks. but give him a minute.]
[he's quiet, mulling that one over. it feels a little incongruous to him, and how he thinks. but give him a minute.]
[settling against him, giving him that minute, and hoping he sees some truth to it; can't help the way the world responds to your actions]
That is my hope. Otherwise . . . [burying against him slightly]
Otherwise...?
[he lifts his arm to put it around her shoulder now]
[he lifts his arm to put it around her shoulder now]
[sighs]
I would have realized the goal that a god had given me, for no purpose or reason.
I would have realized the goal that a god had given me, for no purpose or reason.
And what goal was that...?
[he lightly runs a hand through the end strands of her hair]
[he lightly runs a hand through the end strands of her hair]
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